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Fic: Northern Star
Title: Northern Star
Characters: Sam and Dean
Fandom: Supernatural
Summary: There are many things Sam is not and one thing that he is.
He’s not a balled-up boy anymore, doesn’t curl up to fit along your side, baby tummy still pressing against yours, and toe at your knees because that’s as far as he can reach. He doesn’t knock at you with his elbows and scuff at the hair in his eyes, doesn’t come home with impossible grass stains and scabs on his shins. He isn’t reprimanded for blowing bubbles in his milk because he doesn’t have that space between his front teeth where he always tried to slide a straw. He doesn’t ask for Lucky Charms, he doesn’t offer you the rest of his popsicle, and doesn’t make faces at the carrots you dish on his plate.
He’s not a colt-cut teenager anymore, doesn’t cry at night because his bones ache or challenge you to races after school. He doesn’t grip the wheel of the Impala with white knuckles or fuss over his shirt before a dance. He doesn’t wear your hand-me-downs, the shirts that were always too tight in the shoulders and the pants that never covered his shoes. He doesn’t blush when he walks by the cheerleaders or shout to shake the rafters when he has to quit his job at the store because you’re moving again. He doesn’t display his report cards on the counter for Dad to see and he doesn’t call you names with the clumsiness of someone who’s not used to forming four-letter words. He doesn’t eat everything in sight or laugh hysterically at the way you can perfectly imitate the drawl of the sheriff who last pulled you over.
He’s not even the shaped-strong man you met after midnight in Palo Alto, the whip-snap strength cloaked beneath the heart he wears on his sleeve. He doesn’t show frustration with a jet of breath or roll his eyes. He doesn’t pine for fruit after a week of greasy diners or flash dimples at the waitress who delivers his sandwich with a smile. He doesn’t break into song because the windows are down and you asked him to, or eat his take-out with chopsticks because Jess showed him how. He doesn’t raise his eyebrows when you ask him to drive, he doesn’t hesitate when you pop the Impala’s hood, and he doesn’t linger over the silver bullets he loads into his gun.
He’s heroic, you decide, this stretched-wide monster of a man who towers above you and seems to shelter the world when he raises his arms. He chases you down like prey and then covers you with his back to the threat, lion-hearted, his teeth bare or covered in blood, his voice an animal growl. He closes in slow and strikes fast, eyes hard because of his hardships, shoulders stiff against the load he bears. He takes your burdens and carries them and the burdens of those you’ve passed along the way. He cradles you, your hands, your head, and cleans your bruises, your cuts when you have them. He argues with you, that straight-edge logic slicing through your protests, backed by the force of his zeal. He pirouettes with the shadows that cling to him, dark moths to a dark flame, and he is the prism that finds the light and breaks the black with his body. He struggles with the oil-slick on his soul and finds purchase in the grip he has on your acceptance, enough to keep him climbing from the pit inside just so he can choose to jump in another one, this time in an abandoned cemetery not far from where he was a soft-cheeked toddler who loved you more than anything.
One thing about Sam has never changed.
Notes: I can't seem to focus on the othertrillion Supernatural stories I've started, so I sat down tonight and began with something new, something that has no plot or dialogue and is basically (in my mind) a steady stream of pictures. Then I posted it, after reading it through once, so bear with me.
Characters: Sam and Dean
Fandom: Supernatural
Summary: There are many things Sam is not and one thing that he is.
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There are many things Sam is not.
He’s not a balled-up boy anymore, doesn’t curl up to fit along your side, baby tummy still pressing against yours, and toe at your knees because that’s as far as he can reach. He doesn’t knock at you with his elbows and scuff at the hair in his eyes, doesn’t come home with impossible grass stains and scabs on his shins. He isn’t reprimanded for blowing bubbles in his milk because he doesn’t have that space between his front teeth where he always tried to slide a straw. He doesn’t ask for Lucky Charms, he doesn’t offer you the rest of his popsicle, and doesn’t make faces at the carrots you dish on his plate.
He’s not a colt-cut teenager anymore, doesn’t cry at night because his bones ache or challenge you to races after school. He doesn’t grip the wheel of the Impala with white knuckles or fuss over his shirt before a dance. He doesn’t wear your hand-me-downs, the shirts that were always too tight in the shoulders and the pants that never covered his shoes. He doesn’t blush when he walks by the cheerleaders or shout to shake the rafters when he has to quit his job at the store because you’re moving again. He doesn’t display his report cards on the counter for Dad to see and he doesn’t call you names with the clumsiness of someone who’s not used to forming four-letter words. He doesn’t eat everything in sight or laugh hysterically at the way you can perfectly imitate the drawl of the sheriff who last pulled you over.
He’s not even the shaped-strong man you met after midnight in Palo Alto, the whip-snap strength cloaked beneath the heart he wears on his sleeve. He doesn’t show frustration with a jet of breath or roll his eyes. He doesn’t pine for fruit after a week of greasy diners or flash dimples at the waitress who delivers his sandwich with a smile. He doesn’t break into song because the windows are down and you asked him to, or eat his take-out with chopsticks because Jess showed him how. He doesn’t raise his eyebrows when you ask him to drive, he doesn’t hesitate when you pop the Impala’s hood, and he doesn’t linger over the silver bullets he loads into his gun.
He’s heroic, you decide, this stretched-wide monster of a man who towers above you and seems to shelter the world when he raises his arms. He chases you down like prey and then covers you with his back to the threat, lion-hearted, his teeth bare or covered in blood, his voice an animal growl. He closes in slow and strikes fast, eyes hard because of his hardships, shoulders stiff against the load he bears. He takes your burdens and carries them and the burdens of those you’ve passed along the way. He cradles you, your hands, your head, and cleans your bruises, your cuts when you have them. He argues with you, that straight-edge logic slicing through your protests, backed by the force of his zeal. He pirouettes with the shadows that cling to him, dark moths to a dark flame, and he is the prism that finds the light and breaks the black with his body. He struggles with the oil-slick on his soul and finds purchase in the grip he has on your acceptance, enough to keep him climbing from the pit inside just so he can choose to jump in another one, this time in an abandoned cemetery not far from where he was a soft-cheeked toddler who loved you more than anything.
One thing about Sam has never changed.
Notes: I can't seem to focus on the other
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Great job, I like it a lot. :)
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And Sam does change so much physically, and Dean does have to wrap his head around that, that he'd not the biggest,(although he's still the oldest, as he frequently tries to use that line in order to call the shots, but Sam doesn't buy that anymore as some kind of inherent superiority). And Sam is stronger than he is, and Dean had to accept that Sam has protective instincts toward him too, as much as he would rather be the one who always protects Sam.
When Sam called Dean 'kiddo', when Dean was asleep, and Sam was waking him up, to me that was a statement that Sam had shifted his own view of himself. It wasn't the typical way a younger sibling would wake up an older one. (throw something at them, yell in their ear, that sort of thing). Sam sees Dean as not being invincible, that his brother, although older, can be vulnerable, and maybe he takes a little satisfication in his own strength. He's not just the little brother now, and I think sometimes when he takes the lead he might be channeling John a bit.
Great snapshots.
Laurie
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That is gorgeous, what a wonderful take on how Dean sees all of Sam.
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Absolutely beautiful writing.
He takes your burdens and carries them and the burdens of those you’ve passed along the way. He cradles you, your hands, your head, and cleans your bruises, your cuts when you have them.
So much love. ♥
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Ahhhh, inner turmoil. I love it. what a beautifully written imagery heavy sentence. *sniff*
>>>One thing about Sam has never changed.<<<
He's always been consistent. He's always tried to do the right thing by everyone. Which usually came back to bite him on the ass.
*sniff* *wipes eyes*
Moar? Please moar?
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And my daughter was starting to lose her little kid looks and getting her young lady looks right before she died.
I could see all the images you described here about Sammy as he was growing up. That was nice. And the partial sentence >>>He struggles with the oil-slick on his soul and finds purchase in the grip he has on your acceptance, <<<was so smooth and natural, I loved it. I'll be reading more of your work. Thank you for the imagery.:)
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Love that.
Beautiful piece! :)
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